Archive for January, 2011

There’s nothing like feeling you’re so out of control that you don’t even know your own next move.  I feel so powerless.  How do I stop my addictions? How do I curb the insanity? I feel like I am slowly disappearing and identifying with material things rather than with my own humanity? What is happening to me?

I crave  a connection to people, but technology gets in the way, and everyone wants to do their own thing these days, there’s no sense of community.  I feel very alone most of the time.  It’s exhausting to keep wearing this happy face.

I’m not going to give in, but I do need help.  I don’t know who does and doesn’t care about me anymore.  For real at least.  So tired of the fair-weather friends.

Just gonna keep holding on, trying to stay positive.


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